last minute
im proud of myself for getting on and doing these every day. even if they are last minute.
i really believe 80% of success is just showing up. here i am, showing up.
im going to stream of consciousness rant about something as it comes to my mind
hmm growing up i was really proud of who i was and i dont feel that way anymore. i know i already talked about this so i dont mean to sound like a broken record. im acurely aware of my situation but not as proactive in getting myself out of my situation. its too comfortable, too easy. thats the issue though, im taking the more comfortable route because i cant take risks with the responsibilities i have (parents, brothers, etc). i heard about this book that says you should burn the boats and the idea is that you should just focus on having only a plan A because having a plan B makes things too easy, theres always something you can fall back on. and i guess that is generally true. but the thing is suppose i burn the boats and i have no job and i even leave school early. then what, my parents have to keep working until i make something of myself and i can give them the money to not have to work which is the end goal anyway.
on top of that i do have some personal obligations, i can pay off my car by the end of this year or early next year but that assumes a stable economic condition which i dont think we’ll get in the next year or so. i have very very very good job security (my company has never had layoffs). that gives me such an amazing cushion. if hard times are coming, doing well for myself will be even harder.
anywho, here’s another blog in the books. i need to give you that personal finance app. maybe ill do that right now. i have put 46 minutes into it so far and i have a decent product.
im about to go on spring break. the funny thing is last year i couldn’t go on a spring break trip so i ended up not going and staying home and on my github rewind that also ended up being my most productive month. interesting correlation.
i wonder what my most productive month will be this year, probably march again because i feel super motivated and im writing this blog every day that i have to push to github for the changes to happen on my website. which reminds me i need to make a more elegant system for sending me messages and responding. theres this kid i asked a question to on twitter i think ill go check after i push this. smart kid. reminds me of me when i was younger.
12 - 03/08/2025