learning

being deliberate about my learning has been something i’ve been very bad with.

it’s okay to make mistakes, thats human. but to keep making the same mistakes is idiocy. intelligent people are people who are good at pattern recognition, they notice things and that innately make them good problem solvers.

its what made einstein a great physicist, or david foster wallace an amazing writer, or lebron james an amazing basketball player. they make mistakes, they find the patterns, they learn, and they adapt. my mind wanders, it gets distracted, it lives in its reality. and so i lose a crucial piece to growth.

how have i tried to be better about it? i just make mental notes. or ill be more deliberate (like recording myself playing basketball). that way when im doing things, im confident. not because im cocky, but because i know i put in the work to be the very best.

the other day, i had a moment of doubt. i was always a confident kid, believing in what i could do and had an unwavering conviction of my own greatness. but i think as of late ive felt some doubt. im leaving behind my childhood and early adult years. but am i leaving my self confidence and and unwavering belief in myself as well.

i hope not. but i think i am. and i can only make up for it by putting in the work.

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7 - 03/03/2025